Instead of figuring that one out I might just post videos. I kinda wish that problem would just fix itself. Or that someone will fix it for me. Here's hoping.
Christmas feels a little different for me this year. I haven't been home for months and our little apartment has zero christmas decorations. We've been teaching the kids christmas songs at school (hearing them randomly start solo singing what they think the words are to the right tune makes my heart light up). Being away from home has forced my focus to be on the right sort of things this year though. I could care less what i get for christmas (santa can still come though, i wouldn't turn that down). Maybe i'm finally a grown up? Maybe its because I've been sick this past month and have been in bed quite a bit which made for a lot too much "me time". But the things that are getting me excited this season are my relationships with others. The best part of my week was little Danielle coming in before school started and sitting on my lap and rubbing her little fingers over my fingernails. Or Stevie laying her head on my lap and giving her a massage. Or today, the cutest old lady at the bus stop looked me in the eyes and smiled at me. Smiled at me! NO one here in Lithuania does that. Eye contact and smiles are just a foreign concept. That little 3 seconds of a moment just made me so happy. Touch and being close to others is all I want for christmas this year. I want to be around my family. I want to hear Isla's little voice saying hi, aunt jenni (hopefully that phase isn't done yet). I want a hug from my mom. I want to talk to my sister.
I want my relationships to be better whether it be with strangers, acquaintances or my loved ones. I want to make someone's day a little brighter.
Be kinder. Be gentle. Be selfless.
Have yourself a merry christmas season everyone - december has arrived!
I just read this. Love you. So glad you're home.
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